The memory is still fresh, I deadly wanted a new Samsung Note 2 until I decided to use my scholarship money (I don’t care!) to buy one. I was really into writing and I intended to make full use of the phone to maximise my reading & writing hobbies given it has the wonderful, multi-tasking S pen. I remembered doing research by research on “why should I buy Note 2”, and a series of keen reading on the specification of the phone.

Finally, on a fine morning in Sarawak, the phone was mine. I remembered how it felt holding the large screen phone, everything is up to my expectations, satisfied. Really am!

What I love about that little guy was that, it really had a strong immunity. In whatever situations, it would come back alive and continue to be amazing as always. No hanging problem, everything worked so so fine and elegant, even when its screen has became whatever now.

The phone is sentimental for me. My first ever phone that I buy by myself without parents beside (talk about growing up lol) and using my own money (although it’s a scholarship, but hey I put efforts to get the scholarship okay).

You’ll be remembered baby. Thanks for your 4 years of wonderful services and experiences.

Now, you can rest 🤗



Strated working today after a long, occupied weekend. I am tired and longing for my bed. I swear I’ll jump on my bed once I finished my work later, I don’t care.

You know what? In the midst of the (unnecessary) busyness, I was still having times to ponder about things happening inside, and around me. How come situation and life can be this confusing, and often leave people hard and afraid to decide?

The bad news is, I am starting to feel afraid, deep down- to be real honest. To make it even worse, I don’t know what to do about it other than praying for the best. I just don’t know.

I mean, can I just quit being an adult?


I don’t know if it’s because of my hormone, or the new BB Cream or the new facial cleanser I am using now, but my face recently is prone to zits. Ladies nightmare! It’s not that I really want to change to something new, but my skin has gotten drier, and my previous cleanser got scrub elements which is a big no for dry skin. For BB Cream, I started to use this particular brand (because my previous BB’s brand is hard to find near me, damn it) and I think it is the real culprit behind my mini breakout. Even though it has a satisfied amount of SPF, but the texture is quite concentrated, most probably it clogged my pores so yeah, the rest, they say, is history.

In the process of reducing the mini breakout (I said ‘mini’ because I had experienced much more terrible, major breakout back then in my last year of uni), I stopped using the cream immediately and reduce the usage of the facial cleanser. I think the cleanser is ok, but just maybe,. who knows?

So whatever, I bare-faced to work. The only things that I apply on are my favorite aloe vera and baby powder and off I go, every day, for these 3 days (and counting). A few catalysts of the breakout might be dehydration (ok ok I admit it, I was lazy to drink sometimes), and overeating (blame on me) and too much carbs and junk foods. I don’t know, I just feel like eating nonsense these few weeks. For the sake of my skin, I am now trying to re-hydrate my body system, and of course watching what I am eating. No junk foods and I should stop blaming my innocent hormone. I know I should turn back to my previous BB Cream even though I am so lazy to crawl to the crowded mall, it must be age! Ugh.

That aside, here are some tips that I think would be useful for us, ladies. Breakout is the combination of various aspects, and I think the main contributor is our daily lifestyle.

Towards a healthier and more positive lifestyle! (and clearer skin!, obviously)



Acne Map Remedies

(source from here)
Facial Region Solution
  • Go to bed early (10pm) and wake up early (6am). Even if you can’t fall asleep, it’s good to relax so your liver can rest and be ready for work the next day
  • Drink plenty of water to flush out toxins
  • Drink less soda and carbonated beverages
  • 20-30 minutes of light exercise every day, especially outdoors
  • Practice relaxation techniques to worry less
  • Get enough sleep with a regular sleep schedule
  • Eat healthy foods, chewing thoroughly to improve your digestion
  • Reduce refined sugar in your diet
  • Keep a daily food diary to see if your acne is related to certain food groups (like dairy)
  • Practice better hygiene (i.e. washing bangs and hair, cleaning hats)
  • Check if shampoos, conditioners, and hair products are irritating skin
  • Eat less processed food, junk food, and fast food
  • Reduce the amount of unhealthy fat in your diet (healthy fats from avocado and fish are okay)
  • Eat cooling foods like bitter melon, cucumbers, and gourds
  • Practice better hygiene, especially during the summer and if you wear makeup and/or sweat a lot
Between the Brows
  • Exercise, but avoid overly strenuous exercise
  • Get more sleep
  • Avoid alcohol
  • Avoid smoking
  • Eat lighter foods and foods that are less “rich” (like butter and cheese)
  • Avoid late night snacks
  • Eat less pungent foods (spices, garlic, etc)
  • Eat less meat
  • Eat less salt
  • Eat warm temperature foods (not too cold or hot)
  • Get more fresh air
  • Exercise everyday (like going for a walk)
  • Massage the area around your nose for better circulation
  • Make sure you are getting enough Vitamin B
Left Cheek
  • Maintain a normal daily routine
  • Try to keep a positive mood
  • Eat more cooling foods such as gourds, winter melons, and green beans
  • Don’t overeat, especially junk food
  • Try to decompress and relax
  • The liver is the strongest from 1-3 AM. This is when you should be sleeping
  • The liver is weakest at 1-5 PM, so schedule difficult work for the morning
  • If you have to work in the afternoon, rest your eyes for 5 minutes every hour
  • Practice proper hygiene, especially if you live in a polluted city
  • Check laundry detergent for any irritating ingredients
  • Change pillow cases frequently if you sleep on this side of your face
  • Clean cell phones with rubbing alcohol
  • Lower left cheek acne could represent poor dental health, so keep your gums and teeth healthy by flossing and brushing regularly
Right Cheek
  • Avoid fast food and junk food
  • Avoid mango, taro root, wine, and seafood or other foods you may be sensitive to
  • Eat less sugar
  • Get more fresh air
  • The lung is strongest at 7-9 AM. This is the best time for aerobic exercise
  • Practice proper hygiene, especially if you live in a polluted city
  • Check laundry detergent for any irritating ingredients
  • Change pillow cases frequently if you sleep on this side of your face
  • Clean cell phones with rubbing alcohol
  • Lower left cheek acne could represent poor dental health, so keep your gums and teeth healthy by flossing and brushing regularly
Lip Area
  • Eat more fiber
  • Include more fresh fruits and vegetables in your diet
  • Eat less spicy and fried foods
  • Massage abdominal area in a clockwise motion
  • Change your toothpaste and/or chapstick
Chin and Jaw
  • Reduce the habit of eating before bed
  • Eat more fresh fruit and vegetables
  • Get more rest
  • Get your hormones checked for imbalances
  • Get 20 minutes of exercise each day
  • Sleep early and wake up early, getting at least 7-8 hours of sleep each night
  • Reduce stress as much as possible (yoga, meditating, listening to music, writing in a journal, etc.)
  • Massage your body for relaxation, particularly the abdomen
  • Practice proper hygiene
  • Check toothpaste, mouthwash, and chapsticks
  • Drink spearmint tea
  • Take omega-3s to help regulate hormones

Another side of joy

The joy of seeing a stack of Murakami’s books, Lang Leav’s and a few more books by author that I would go “ahhhhhhhh” (while checking their crazy price!) is relatively indescribable. There’s something about the art of Murakami it almost feel like me hanging out somewhere at a beach, and more often than not, I would find myself sitting on a deserted bench observing all the tiny movements and behaviours of people- in slow-mo. Beautiful, beautiful stuffs.

I don’t know if it’s legit to compare Murakami and A. Samad Said but I love both of their writings. I would read back to back, and pause multiple times it if it’s too awesome! I mean, that is what people don’t know about me. I pause / continue later if they are too good to read, just because I don’t know what to do about their awesomeness. Hence, it would take me forever to finish my favorite books.

Anyway, back to the main topic. Yeah, books at the bookshelves. Given Murakami’s books are quite expensive here in the local bookstore, I screamed in joy (silent scream, not wanting to be a centre of attraction!) when I see the books were displayed in one of the small bookstores in Adisucipto Airport, Yogyakarta few weeks ago. I spottted a few more Murakami’s books and all of my Lang Leav’s crush books. Price in Indonesia Rupiah (IDR) which is wayyy cheaper! Checked Rupiah notes in my seasoned purse, I still had around 300+ Rupiah due to my lack interest to shop batik fabric earlier when we stopped at the shopping centre. If I had more money in the purse, I think I will bag in everything there! So, as a result, I bought the thick 1Q84, which contained all the 3 volumes – priced about 288 Rupiah. Satisfied!

I think the books at the bookshelves aren’t really the main topic here. What triggered me to write this post (rant) was actually right after I stumbled upon and read this particular blog by the name of Dear Sarina. I adore how she writes and how she carves each and every word, the art is there, and the messages are obvious and deep.  What else is needed to be a good writer? I’m jealous.

Ah, I am still me. Easily fall in love with people who write! (Love is love, regardless gender. Don’t judge me as a lesbian please lol).


I should read more to write. No question about it.

I don’t know what the future holds


I don’t know what the future holds but having the chance to know you has brought me to an edge that I’d never believed myself could experience. 

I don’t know what the future holds, I think there’s something for us ahead. Otherwise why do we feel like home when we are together? Just, what’s this chemistry? What should we do about the overflowing chemistry?

I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know if someday we will drift away from each other, due to other vital commitments but for now, I just want to live for the moment. I just want to enjoy us while we can. I know I can’t hold a caterpillar forever, it needs to be a butterfly and what butterfly does? It flies, obviously. 

I don’t know what the future holds, deep down, I am secretly wishing and hoping that the butterfly won’t forget this route and perhaps, the feeling of home is immortal.

Despite all the dramas and occasional cold wars, I am one lucky girl here to have you in my life. It’s warm and almost feel like a perfect summer. You should’ve came to my life earlier lol. I know its the nth time I said so, but it’s (obviously) nobody’s fault. Its just fate and reality.

For the record, 8th – 9th September 2017 is the happiest moment for me. To many, many years of happiness & beautiful moments – together! ❤ God willing.

*Past midnight, am trying to put myself to sleep. It must be because of my long napping time during the day. Ugh.

The Tornado

I guess, he is right. Most ladies have that kind of mood of being moody out of nowhere and if I can add, the ability to become so sensitive on unnecessary things. (I am a lady too, so I’m included sometimes but I believe I take things simple (hat off to my whatever-i-dont-care attitude) except during PMS lol).

Its my youngest sister. I couldn’t believe she has grown up to be a lady, that fast – or maybe because she is the youngest, so you know how the youngest ones act? Sulking, easily gets offended, and a bit complicated. I understand it’s my fault when I forgot to inform her I’ll be going to my elder sister’s house. It was unplanned, really. The last thing I know, she had already sulking and changed the voice intonation (ladies know this) so yeah, I’m dead, guys. I know exactly the tornado inside her, and I think it’s best to let the tornado calms down first. 

Anyway, I know it’s nothing. We rarely get offended by each other. So, hey, chill ok. Common!


After so many days of holiday, coming back to work at the middle (?) of the week is not funny at all. Went back home for just 2 days for Eid and if there’s any right decision I’ve ever made, it is when I went home by flight! Lol. Traffic was bad due to the long public holidays. I enjoyed my small family so much, as usual. We’d never lose the bond between us and I pray it will stay forever. InsyaAllah.

J came. He is something else, I couldn’t fathom, really.

After Indonesia trip, Eid, and home, I am coming back fresh (but never too fresh to work in the first week, sorry not sorry!) personally & mentally. I want to take things slow, and don’t wanna rush into anything. I adore a slow pace, relax and chill life, enjoying those little things that make me happy. I don’t want to be an unfriendly person, or someone who have issues with other person. I will still be friendly me, not resenting others because of their mistakes / judgements, or not belittle others just because they failed to meet my benchmark etc. I want to make peace, and if somebody has something against me, I wouldn’t care much because it is their right; and it would never affect me in any mega aspect. I will still be me, nonetheless.

The good news is, remember the issues inside my rent apartment? –  At last, my relationship with my housemate is now healed.   Maybe we got too much things wrapped in our head during those rough times, but now that we’ve cleared our mind and decided to just look at the bright side, I guess things can be great again. You know, I dream about a warm house (including rent house of course!), and a warm, moderate life. I want things to be in place beautifully, I believe it would. It’s just a matter of time.

p/s: Cant wait for the upcoming long weekend.

Yogyakarta 2.0

The initial idea was to make a several separate posts about the places we visited during our Jogja trip. But well, I’ve been busy with things so before the mood vanished off totally, for the sake of my personal record, here it is –

Next stop after Prambanan & Plaosan, we visited another candi called Borobudur. Listed under UNESCO, and read about it several times in my History textbook when I was in secondary school (I forgot what was it about) having the chance to see it with my own eyes is just amazing. The root of the building itself opened up a a variety of opinions and discussions (on net), some even said it had something to do with one of our Prophets- Sulaiman a.s. I don’t know the exact truth of everything but one thing for sure, it has a beautiful structure. An art. The weather was exceptionally hot, of course.

Then, we headed to Kalibiru, another place with a breathtaking scenery. Quite cold since it’s a highland. We have to put on harness for safety,  but frankly it is ugly in photo. Lol. But the view is gold!

I thought Kalibiru was the top notch view out of all places in Jogja..not until we went to Timang Beach! I fell in love with the beauty of Timang, it seemed unreal! The combination of sky and ocean, and breaking waves – I couldn’t ask for more!

Sunburn was getting real but that didn’t stop us from riding a jeep towards Mt. Merapi. It was my first time riding a jeep on the rough, stony road. Needless to say, it was exciting!

I think that is all the big remarks of the trip. Some of the places we stopped by for the sake of their scenery included :

Pines Forest

Kebun Mangunan

Bakpia is their signature delicacy. Tasted soo good, and yes, not too much of sugar.

And for some of us who waited for the shopping moment, Beringharjo Road made them happy (hope so!). For a batik lover, Jogja is the right place for you!

For the girl who doesn’t really fancy batik or fabric shopping like me, it felt like clock ticked so slow during the shopping session. Haha.

So, after all the shopping we went to Airport for our flight home.

Remarkable trip! Golden experience I would say.

Looking forward to the next adventure!