Tada! Chalkboard theme for my blog. Its not that vogue and mind-blowing theme but it gave me sentimental value!

It reminds me of my childhood time, my school-time, and my long journey in this life. (dunya is not long,for sure :0 )

I played “teacher-teacher” game in my childhood time! Some act like a teachers and some are students.And, of course there is more punishment than the lessons.Its amazingly interesting and exciting,should recommend to the childs nowadays instead of just project out their fingers on the ipad or whatsoever tablets.

Next, it reminds me how nice I felt when I can write something on the chalkboard during my school time,something like true answer from my teachers’ questions.It reminds me when I taught my fellas about some subjects for revision, and I just feel good when they hear me what I’m going to talk. Even sometimes, I myself didn’t quite understand what I’m talking 😛

That’s my school time.

As I grew, no more chalkboard or blackboard. Its now whiteboard and marker pen. Clearly analogise how life is going on.

Sometime, I don’t know what to write on the whiteboards. I afraid if what I am going to write will be laughed at. I am no more simply write on. I must think before write. Think about how people see my writing, how they think about me and the most important is how they will react upon my writing.I have to bear in mind that, I am not write in front of my childhood friends who didn’t care at all what I  will write and talk.

Sometime, I simply took the marker pen without seeing “permanent” or “whiteboard” type. If I write something wrong with permanent pen, I will be struggled to erased them off. But, if I wrote something true with “whiteboard” pen, I just hope the pen will  turn into “permanent” type so that no one can erase it. I want the writing stay.

You hope that you is “permanent” pen that wrote on your someone’s whiteboard. So that it is hardly to erase.

But sometimes, it fails. Rain,storm,changing day and years, your writing will be fade off.You just will be amazed how quick the writing fade. So, dont write too much. Somehow, it will disappear some day.

And you will be sad, disappointed and that sort of feelings.

So,keep living and smiling.Create your own whiteboard. Life is permanent pen. Sketch and write well.

Allah knows best.

Ameen Ya Rabbal’alamin

Puisi : Metafora

Tentang sebuah perasaan yang digantung mati

Oleh jiwa yang tak punya hati atau hati sendiri mati

Dikatakan rindu, namun tak muncul dalam mimpi

Hanya sebuah perasaan maya yang jauh dari realiti

Cuba luahkan rasa dalam puisi-puisi

Menjadi metafora dan frasa yang tiada titik henti

Tetapi kata ialah kata,bukan tulisan hati

Dan dia kembali

Menyambut pulang sebuah perasaan mati

Terbelangkai lagi di hujung simpang, penuh duri

Lalu biarkan perasaan dibelai Illahi

Rupanya ia bermula di sini

Bermula dengan kidung doa dan tangisan malam berselang seli

Kisah sudah menjadi basi

Sehingga menjadi makanan jiwa lemah beralas virus hati

Bangun hati, diri kamu untuk Illahi

Bukan untuk manusia yang penuh ego di hati

Puisi : Kontang

Aku mencuba menggarap kata

Atas kanvas kosong yang putih nyata

Namun gelap,hitam dan kelam terlayar hanya

Atau mungkin saja kemarau melanda minda

Aku punya rasa, mungkin tiada kata

Mungkin saja tertakdir menjadi rahsia

Seperti mereka yang tidur lena

Lalu tanpa sedar siang menyapa

Meninggalkan malam yang panjang dan menyeksa sukma

Menyedarkan jiwa dia tentang dunia

Seperti pelangi jauh, indah di mata

Mencapainya, ialah mimpi yang tak mungkin nyata

*Hening yang menjemput pagi dan dia pun menunggu matahari meluahkan cinta.

Hitam dan putih. Seperti perasaan yang bercampur.
Hitam dan putih. Seperti perasaan yang bercampur.


To be loved.. is a bless!


My fingers are eager to dance over this cute keyboard and at the same time I have no solid idea what to write on. How I wish to translate all of my thoughts and feelings into words.At least some.

Here it is.Today I read an amazing articles about love and surely it is not a boring or typical one but really made me think.

Got this from and its originally from this fb .

Haha see? how the knowledge flow off? 😀


During a seminar, a woman asked,” How do I know if I am with the right person?”

The author then noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so he said, “It depends. Is that your partner?” In all seriousness, she answered “How do you know?” Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing on your mind replied the author.

Here’s the answer…

Every relationship has a cycle… In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s why it’s called “falling” in love.

People in love sometimes say, “I was swept of my feet.”Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It’s a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, “Am I with the right person?” And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when relationships breakdown.

The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it’s learning to love the person you found.

People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.

Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I’m not saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few years later.


The key to succeeding in a Relationship is not finding the right person; it’s learning to love the Person you found.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make it work. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner), Just as there are physical laws Of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. If you know how to apply these laws, the results are predictable.

Love is therefore a “decision”. Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO.

Love is therefore a “decision”. Not just a feeling.
Love is therefore a “decision”. Not just a feeling.

Minute things, Vast lessons

Today, 1.30 pm , right after my last class for today, I headed to Computer room at my faculty to settle up something. At the same time, my mind keep saying “its Zohor time. You need to pray first.Allah said in HIS kitab to do not love something more than you love HIM.Pray first!”

And another voice inside me said ” its OK. Juts few seconds. Go settle your things first, and you can pray peacefully”.

And unfortunately, and I don’t know why, I went to the computer room first. (Shame on me).

I opened up the door of the computer room wishing there is a PC for me. Just a PC. I don’t need more (of course).

But there’s none. Every PC is full.

Then the voice came.

“Go pray first, Izni “.

Yea. I should pray first.Love Allah more than anything, I already promised it before.

After prayed, I entered the room again. Wishing a PC, suddenly my eyes stop at an empty PC. Every PC is full except that PC. Allahuakbar. Allah really mean it. Love HIM more than anything, you will be enough.

Astaghfirullahal’adzim. I repent for my ignorance.

That PC reserved by ALLAH for me, even though I saw some peoples standing there finding for empty PC too.

So, what I can say?

Learn to love ALLAH more than anything in this world. HE create us, so why we are so ignorance and arrogant to kneel down and sujud to him? Love ALLAH and you will be enough 🙂

Its not too late to change,by the way.