Day by day, it getting closer and for me, it is not the most important occasion in my entire life. Yes, in a sense, it is important and a huge matter. But not if compared to “what I will do after I graduated” thoughts that had been haunting me since..erm since my first year. Haha. Okay, I know it was too early to think about that on my first year of study. The thought just keep on and on until recently, I realized that it shouldn’t left floated on my cage of mind. I ought to think it deeply.
I am not excited to graduate until I know what would be my next. I mean, until I know what I should do after graduated. I am not used to this. It’s weird for not having a goal, or a single idea that I confident with. I want back my passion in creating ambition.
So, I asked so many people about what I should do (although I know it is funny to ask people about our destiny and our life). Nothing got me satisfied. Their answers were just “what do you want to be?” , “Follow your desire” etc etc which I felt like “wait, did you just throw the question back to me?”, and I ashamedly answered in my heart – I don’t know.
Few days ago, I asked my best mate while we were walking around. She asked me to work. But, I love, deadly love to study (*the thing is – I don’t know what to study on. haha) And her explanations are reasonable.
She said “until WHEN you want to study? Until you get old and older? Get out, and get a life”
“Until when?” Hah.
Seriously, this post will be continued