So, the story began when mom and dad came here for a short vacay. We were in 4 since adik went for her netball competition (she was in an extreme jealousy :P). Despite the super hot weather, we insisted to go to Port Dickson, booked an apartment online and had a good stay for one night. Since all the hotel and apartment which face the sea were all sold out, having this kind of view (pic below) from our balcony is great enough!
What a horrific way to end April. I’m drowning in work, still have a lot of stuffs to settle down. I can’t bring home all the works since I left my laptop at Bangi, and working through phone is a big no no. I just realized that I forgot to prepare the sample projects that should be sent to the Philippines’ team! Just what I was thinking? With hundreds of email to go, basic target, enquiries and keep making call (while getting mad at in between, well I’m well adapted), it seemed like an endless task.
I don’t know how to face tomorrow. Gotta complete everything in one shot, beautifully and gracefully – come rain or shine. And tomorrow, AB will take his leave, but never did he leaves my mind. *cough*.
Mom & dad are also coming! I am excited! Missing them dearly.
Hope things go well. Just pray that I come out alive from tomorrow’s storm.
I love this kind of simple food. Such a minimalistic! It is just water, onion, garlic (I love garlic!), sprinkle of salts, a tablespoon of oyster sauce, cabbage and broccoli – and yes, spaghetti or angel hair of course.
*Long weekend has come to the end. Will get back in work starting tomorrow, sure it would be a tough week since I just have 4 days to meet my monthly target. This coming May onwards, things will be a little bit different, in some aspects. I will have to brace myself, keep calm and just go with the flow. All will be fine.
Just follow the flow, just follow the flow…Promise.
Sunny Sunday. I wanted to say how much today’s Sunday remind me of you.
Everything about you that I started to miss badly but who am I to claim so, plus it won’t make any difference anymore. Not this time I guess? You would never accept the flawed me again and I, obviously couldn’t take back my words even though I never meant so. The thought that we both hurt each other with words we didn’t supposed to say, stopped me from being so verbal that I used to be. Maybe it would be better left unfixed and just continue as it is. But what should I do in times like sunny Sunday like this that remind me of you? What should I do if I can’t help but missing you every day more and more?
Maybe that is it. Love is one thing, being together is another thing.
I always know that you are so okay even without me, but why it’s not easy for me? What it is about you that make me feel insane?
“Every one of us is losing something precious to us. Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back. That’s part of what it means to be alive. But inside our heads – at least that’s where I imagine it – there’s a little room where we store those memories. A room like the stacks in this library. And to understand the workings of our own heart we have to keep on making new reference cards. We have to dust things off every once in awhile, let in fresh air, change the water in the flower vases. In other words, you’ll live forever in your own private library.”
This site is back on air. After some spring-cleaning, and a moment of hibernating I just hope the posts here would be more matured.
You know, in life there are times where you hate yourself for being you, or feel like you’re such a waste of space, or being so damn insecure about things around you but guess what? Life goes on, with you or without you. It is perfectly fine to feel that way once in a while, but don’t forget to return and love yourself even more harder. If you don’t love yourself, who else will?
I don’t care if I’m the loneliest human on earth as long as I have this kind of sky – and this kind of stars staring at me – and this kind of passing meteor – and this kind of milky way – and..even without all the beautiful kinds, when you’re lonely and alone, you have to accept it no matter what. Deal with it and enjoy the buzzing darkness and loneliness that surround you like a weird, dangerous and hungry predator from the dark sea floor.
I don’t care, go on and tear me apart, loneliness.